My Voicelessness

Every time I see you my Voicelessness hits with a bitter surprise.

I try to say something, but my Voicelessness squeezes me by the throat.

My Voicelessness goes with a great deal of "paralysis" of the limbs.
I feel my arms long and heavy, as if any minute they will hit the ground.
My feet feel large and cumbersome, my thighs feel enormous and drifted away.
It is like I have a giant face that occupies the entire space.

My Voicelessness is to blame. So many words push to come out. But instead they
fill my whole being and I fell as if it would burst any moment.
Every step I take makes the room resound with an unpleasant sound.
I am now touching my neck ... my voicelessness remains in silence. My dewlap feels so huge.

I blame my Voicelessness.

If only I could tell you everything.

I open my mouth , I want to let my mousy little voice out...at last. I wait for my courage to accumulate and
I try to ignore my huge limbs that fill the space.

And then you smile,

get up

it is high time that we said goodbye.

My Voicelessness screams with pain.